heyheyhey!

2011-07-20T10:56:00.000-07:00

it is okay Xingyi. God has shown you a sign just as you want. Dont be insecure

2011-07-19T11:45:00.001-07:00

I am going to leave this place. I am gonna leave you and all our memories. And I cant bear to.

2011-06-29T11:38:00.000-07:00

let my pain be worth it.
God I will remember tonight
I will trust in You
In all things I will be stronger and better.
I will forget about him
I will not be friends with him anymore
I will be trusting in You
and deal with my insecurities
So god if you are willing,
take this cup of suffering away from me
and bless me in ways that I never imagined

2011-05-05T10:09:00.000-07:00

When things get tough, when people breaks your heart, when everything crumbles and you feel like crying again. Remember, you just have to be stronger. No human can help you. Friends and kind words and gifts can make you feel better but they cant help you. At the end of the day, only you can pick up the pieces. Only you can help yourself. Let the pain be worth it.

2011-05-05T09:54:00.000-07:00

it seems when things are fine, there will be this moment that you find yourself stuck again. Nothing bad happened, but you just feel that maybe it is hard to get through. You need new changes.

2010-09-16T10:50:00.000-07:00

My beloved one, they are an example of what to do and what not to do. They are an example of My faithfulness and My unwillingness to let go of the word I have spoken till it is fulfilled in the lives of My children. I counted his unwavering faith as righteousness. The promise was born in spite of the detour. Have you waited a long time? Have you made detours? Have you blamed yourself? Have you wondered and asked why? Have you looked up at the stars at night and wished you could see beyond them to what I see?

I know you can answer yes to all or most of the above questions. This does not daunt Me at all. From this day forward the greatest thing I desire is to see you avoid all future detours. Be close to Me in intimate relationship, in constant communion and detour signs will be unmistakably clear. It is better to avoid than to overcome them, for some can have a lifetime of consequences. I am here to spare you, to remind you of My true nature. I am faithful! I am true! I am to you as I was to Abraham. Trust Me.

“Do not detour with a heart of unbelief for it always causes problems (Hebrews 3:12). Do not let the enemy say, “Hath God Said?” He is a liar and the father of all lies (John 8:44 b) Have faith in Me. Have My faith. Open up your heart and I will fill it with My faith. I am faith. I give Myself to you. Is anything too wonderful or impossible for Me? No! I watch over My word to perform it (Jeremiah 1:12). It does not return without accomplishing the purpose for which I sent it (Isaiah 55:11).”

2010-09-12T10:24:00.000-07:00

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy
With the baby in the backseat

Fifty miles to go and she was running low
On faith and gasoline
It'd been a long hard year

She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way too fast
Before she knew it she was spinning
On a thin black sheet of glass

She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was so scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
?Cause I can't do this on my own

I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat
Sleeping like a rock

And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life

I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
?Cause I can't do this on my own

I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on

Oh Jesus, take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go

So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me
Oh, why, ooh

Help me remember my greater purpose and burden. Help me have faith that You are there to listen to my every prayer. Every prayer matters. Thank you lord.

2010-09-08T09:01:00.000-07:00

Into the book of the wars of the Lord the story of this chapter must be brought, but it looks as sad and uncomfortable as any article in all that history; for there is nothing in it that looks in the least bright or pleasant but the pious zeal of Israel against the wickedness of the men of Gibeah, which made it on their side a just and holy war; but otherwise the obstinacy of the Benjamites in protecting their criminals, which was the foundation of the war, the vast loss which the Israelites sustained in carrying on the war, and (though the righteous cause was victorious at last) the issuing of the war in the almost utter extirpation of the tribe of Benjamin, make it, from first to last, melancholy.

And yet this happened soon after the glorious settlement of Israel in the land of promise, upon which one would have expected every thing to be prosperous and serene. In this chapter we have,
I. The Levite's cause heard in a general convention of the tribes, Judges 20:1-7.
II. A unanimous resolve to avenge his quarrel upon the men of Gibeah, Judges 20:8-11.
III. The Benjamites appearing in defence of the criminals, Judges 20:12-17.
IV. The defeat of Israel in the first and second day's battle, Judges 20:18-25.
V. Their humbling themselves before God upon that occasion, Judges 20:26-28.
VI. The total rout they gave the Benjamites in the third engagement, by a stratagem, by which they were all cut off, except 600 men, Judges 20:29-48. And all this the effect of the indignities done to one poor Levite and his wife; so little do those that do iniquity consider what will be the end thereof.

Before they only consulted God's oracle, Who shall go up first? And, Shall we go up? But now they implored his favour, fasted and prayed, and offered burnt-offerings and peace-offerings (Judges 20:26), to make an atonement for sin and an acknowledgment of their dependence upon God, and as an expression of their desire towards him.

We cannot expect the presence of God with us, unless we thus seek it in the way he has appointed.

2010-09-07T09:08:00.000-07:00

God wants us to enjoy His gifts, Paul exhorting Timothy to...

"Instruct those who are rich in this present world not to be conceited or to fix their hope on the uncertainty of riches, but on God, who richly supplies us with all things to enjoy." (1 Timothy 6:17)

Sadly for many Christians, the time to enjoy is gifts is all the time! In too many churches, the laughter of "religious entertainment" has replaced the holy hush of worship. The sanctuary has become a veritable theater. When the saints get together, the most important thing is to "have fun." In order to salve our consciences, we have a "short devotional" before the fun time ends; and we piously thank God that we've had such a good time

2010-09-07T08:55:00.000-07:00

NOW IT CAME ABOUT IN THOSE DAYS WHEN THERE WAS NO KING IN ISRAEL: This section relates one of the most shocking episodes of Israel's history.
One commentator labels this chapter "The Death of Morality". This event appears to have occurred early in the period of the judges, because Phinehas, the grandson of Aaron, was still ministering as high priest (Jdg 20:28; cf. Nu25:7, 11), and because the tribes were still able to function as a unit (cf. Jos 22:9-34). There is also no mention of the Philistines, who would have suppressed such action during the latter part of the judges’ period.

There is also a need for a long time span between the disgraceful behavior of the tribe of Benjamin and the choice of a Benjamite as king in the 11th century. Saul was in fact from the same town of Gibeah (cf. 1Sa10:26)!

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Clearly this Levite's ministry was greatly compromised from the beginning. Not surprisingly (especially as you read the following lines) that he made little of her sin and separation and sought her back sympathetically as explained in the next verse.

And it came to pass in those days when there was no king in Israel.

It will be sufficient to ponder these words, which occur four times in this book, without reading further in this terrible chapter, which shows the depths of depravity to which man may sink apart from the grace of God. Where Christ is not enthroned as King, drunkenness, impurity, cruelty, selfishness, are supreme, and pursue their ravages unchecked. How different where He reigns in righteousness, and where his will is done as it is done in heaven!

Perpetual failure in life indicates failure in consecration. If you are continually broken in upon by raids of evil, it is certain that you have never enthroned the Son of God.

2010-04-30T11:29:00.000-07:00

I just want to say that
As long as you are happy
I am okay with it.
Though I will never see you all together again
Or taking over the world.

2010-04-16T09:11:00.000-07:00

I never did regret a lot of things. Especially regarding people.
But I regret so much.
Sorry for all the times .
I really miss you so so much.

I could have done a lot of things but I didnt.

I wish I can go back to that time again.

2010-04-10T09:33:00.000-07:00

I am still thinking about kangkong!!!! anyway random thing to note: i thought ophelia 's baby cousin is a dog!

2010-04-09T10:27:00.000-07:00

To eat list: kfc with qianhui
cheapo lor mee with ming ming
sushi buffet with rachel
Cant wait. I am EGGCITED

2010-04-09T08:57:00.000-07:00

I want to do something crazy.

Hmmmm go bangkok to riot?
hmmmm jump into the sea?
hmmmm run on bukit timah hill at midnight?
hmmmm go play in playgrounds?

okay i decided. I want go JB to eat awesome kfc.
Shall look forward to it.

2010-03-24T10:42:00.000-07:00

Pms 's over. Yay
But...
Goodbye to you all.

Our last week together.
Nevertheless,
New place, new people, new learnings.

I will still miss you all.
2 years, 4 years.

2010-03-19T10:17:00.000-07:00

I think I am very cranky this week. I was irritated by certain things two times in 3 days. I hate the feeling of being easily angered. It makes me feel like a spoilt brat.

It must be the working of pms.

2010-03-18T10:14:00.000-07:00

I really really want to thank god for my results . Although it may seem vry average to other ppl, but I noe with my ability I can never get those kind of results. God exceeded my expectations.
He has been faithful to me. I just wanna scream in joy for now:D

2010-02-06T10:02:00.001-08:00

I am stronger than what you think.

2010-01-28T09:53:00.000-08:00

okay my job is awesome. The kids are cute. And naughty . But but but i enjoy it alot. I love how life is busy now. I love Austin coz he looks like tomato and likes to lie on my lap and still dunno how to read. Basically I love everything about this job even though it includes screaming at the kids.

it will all be awesome if A level results is not going to be released forever. but fat hope i know:(

2010-01-17T22:34:00.000-08:00

today is awesome . I was late for a job interview for half an hour. Gone are the good impressions. However, the person in charge was really nice and she was patient with me. AND I GOT THE JOB! The best thing is that I get to play with the kids. And all the people who are working there are fairly nice .The pay is seven bucks per hr and paid biweeking. And I can say bye to telemarketing. They even lead the little kids in prayers and saving grace. How cute is that!

ps: I love this blog because no one noes i revive my blog and I can write whatever I want inside( okay i wont write vulgarites)

2010-01-15T07:39:00.000-08:00

I am nt late for tuition today( okay 5 mins is nt considered late) and after that rushed to telemarketing. Today had telemarketing with vincent which was kinda of cool because I have someone to talk to me. And something hilarious happened today.

Vincent: hello may i speak to XXX?
speaker: Sorry he's dead
Vincent: oh

Me: little girl can pass the phone to ya daddy?
Little girl: okay. DADDY YA GIRLFRIEND CALLED YOU!!
Daddy: !!!!

Me : hi i 'm calling from era are u interested to sell ya house?
man: I cant sell my house. This is a mrt station.
Me: okayzzzzzz

minghui: little girl pass the phne to ya daddy
little girl: okay daddy phone
daddy: who is it? grandma?
little girl: yes!!
daddy gets the phne: hello ma call u later okay
hangs up phne
minghui:!!!!

2010-01-14T22:51:00.000-08:00

I have one job offer coming on, which is being a teacher at acs barker primary. The timing is kind of hectic for me if I am going to continue my telemarketing job. And the pay isnt very high . But oh wells, it's to be busy than slack right? I had enough slacking at home for dec. I think I really wanna go back to busy lifestyle and start earning money. Yeah I know my days willbe packed with ministry, work and ... still work. But it sound kinda of fulfilling to me. Alrights gotta go for tuition now . MUST NOT BE LATE TODAY.

2010-01-11T00:35:00.000-08:00

Alright i revive my blog haha. In this new year of 2010( okay nt really new it has been 11 days pass alr) , my jc life ended( like finally and I can finally find a real job and finally I wont need to think about so many things..okay stop) and my SACG life ended( now it's jcnea zai life). And the thing I am thinking now is for the stupid hamster to faster appear and not make me worry by hiding behind some fridge or washing machine and faster go back to its cage so i dont need to keep searching for it . Period.

2009-06-22T08:48:00.001-07:00

Sorry for forgetting to count my blessings God. Anger engulfed me just now. I need to be constantly reminded of Your love , Man's imperfect love is not the joy of my life but Your perfect love will make up for what I lacked.

It feels kinda of good to have a God to rant to.

To be contented with what I have and what I am put into

2009-06-17T06:47:00.001-07:00

One way to counter attack self pity and anger- count your blessings.

then you will realise,

you are indeed blessed!

2009-06-16T10:40:00.000-07:00

The human heart is like a plot of land. It needs to be plowed and overturn to be suitable soil for growing crops. Sometimes we wonder why must we feel all kinds of feelings, sadness, anger, frustration, etc. I guess God is doing His work on this plot of land by turning the soil over and extracting the rocks from it to be make a land of crops. Though the process is tedious, but at least we can look forward to the harvest . Sadly, there are hearts who refused to let God come in. Therefore, the rocks in it remains, the soil hardens and finally it becomes a land of waste.

help me remember all that you said.

2009-06-10T10:39:00.000-07:00

MY NEW FAVOURITE GUY!

PRESENTING TO YOU

CRAYON SHIN CHAN

Shinchan is the main characters in the anime "Crayon Shinchan." Shinchan is a small kindergarden-aged boy with Chuck Manson eyebrows and a very distinctive voice that will burn itself deep into your brain. He has very strange interests compare to the other normal kids. He like to check out beautiful girls, make his mother angry, playing stupid games imitating that superman, beg his mother to buy toys, and reading books without buying them at the bookstore (the bookstore is like a library to him).

2009-06-05T07:21:00.000-07:00

Today district was tiring yet fun:D
And thank You for leading us when we were lost and didnt know how to go home.
Thank You for the peace and calmness you put in my heart through the long journey home though I knew I broke the curfew.
Thank You for opening the door in unexpected way though it was locked.

I still remember last year, when I was stranded in some place, not knowing how to go to tianruo house. With no cash to take bus, no handphone and 3 bags of belongings with me. There I was, plagued with the feeling of helplessness and frustration towards You, not trusting that You will help, not trusting that You will be that faithful towards me.

What a difference it makes. Trust and disbelief. Situations stays but my heart attitude changed. There is joy now.

now I can proclaim , God is good all the times

"Ask and you will be given what you ask for. Seek, and you will find. Knock and the door will be opened. For everyone who asks, receives. Anyone who seeks, finds. If only you will knock, the door will be open." Matthew 7:7-8

2009-06-04T07:07:00.000-07:00

This year, like last year , has not been a breeze for me.
Filled with ups and downs, emotion breakdowns, anger, frustrations , tears , emoness or whatever it is.
But nevertheless, this 6 months are a learning experience for me. There are so many things that I can give thanks for. Things that God used to encourage me.

Things to give thanks for

1) Class relationship has improved tremendously and I really love all the fun times we have this year( especially during lesson times)

2) A breakthrough in the relationship between me and joane. ( I also dunno how God did it but it just happened miraculously)

3) First major quarrel with bestie but now we are closer than ever:D

4) True Friends in my life that I realised that I can depend on and thank them for being willing to be by my side

5) Restoration of joy in my heart( regardless of the situation, i know you are with me)

6) Financial blessings from God in form of tuition jobs

7)Lastly, times God break me and mould me to make me a better person and realise my mistakes and to be soft before Him

Of course, there are areas in my life that I ought to grow in and have not yet matured
1) honour your parents( yes yes yes it probably take a long time but I guess I cant escape . I ought to grow though i dont know how but well, God will guide)
2) discipline( another area that I failed terribly. I really really really must buck up)
3) Love ( not to put judgement on others easily but instead love them just the way they are)

ALRIGHTS!

2009-05-31T09:41:00.000-07:00

Every experience God gives us, every person He puts in our path, is the perfect preparation for a future only He can see.

Any concern too small to be turned into a prayer is too small to be made into a burden.

When a train goes through a tunnel and it gets dark, you don’t throw away the ticket and jump off. You sit still and trust the engineer.

Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow; it empties today of its strength.

Faith sees the invisible, believes the unbelievable, and receives the impossible.

Discernment is God's call to intercession, never to faultfinding.

Forgiveness is an act of the will, and the will can function regardless of the temperature of the heart.

Never be afraid to trust an unknown future to a known God.

The first step on the way to victory is to recognize the enemy.

If God has called you, do not spend time looking over your shoulder to see who is following.

-corrie ten boom

There is no pit so deep that God’s love is not deeper still". -Betsie Ten Boom

2009-05-28T07:18:00.000-07:00

Start a day wrong and end a day bad. It really amuses me how they can manage to bring out all the negative emotions in me. Seriously, only they have the ability. What a joke.

I am not afraid now. Dont try your luck.

2009-05-25T09:35:00.000-07:00

Ecc 12:6 Or ever the {o} silver cord shall be loosed, or the golden {p} bowl be broken, or the {q} pitcher be broken at the {r} fountain, or the {s} wheel broken at the {t} cistern.

(o) Meaning, the marrow of the backbone and the sinews.

(p) The little skin that covers the brain, which is in colour like gold.

(q) That is, the veins.

(r) Meaning the liver.

(s) Which is the head.

(t) That is, the heart out of which the head draws the powers of life.

2009-05-22T01:52:00.000-07:00

我是小白小新的朋友

一只13年前被他拣到的狗

全白的我被他说像是软绵绵的棉花糖

因为看起来很好吃的样子所以就被他抱回家了

从那一天开始我们一直生活在一起

「你出门了」

伴随着从来没变的话小新从家里飞奔出去

看到他抓着黑色外套嘴里咬着土司的样子

大概今天也快迟到了吧

特别是今年小新变成妈妈说的

「XXXXXXX」

所以好象变的更忙了

的确这个时期的小新不太会注意到我

虽然是没办法的事情

但是不知道为什么还是有一点...

恩寂寞的样子吧

心里以便想跟他说「能不能看看我呢？」

一边又想叫他加油

这两种心情参杂在一起总觉得想要做些什么

就算一点点也好

虽然想试着发出小小的叫声但是却做不到

不知道为什么非常的困

最近常常有这种奇妙的感觉

力气像是慢慢的消失了

我一点都不想吃饭

对散步也提不起兴趣

但是还是喜欢被抚摩

也喜欢被拥抱

「XXXXXXX」结束之后

小新会不会再次尽情的摸我呢

会不会再次抱住我呢

如果会的话就太好了

我追着小新跑

小新穿着常穿的红色衣服跟黄色裤子

小小的手跟我一样大

小白握手
小白转圈
小白棉花糖
「呐小新我最喜欢小新了」

「我也是最喜欢小白了小白是我的好朋友喔」

充满棉花糖的世界里总是软绵绵暖呼呼的

不论任何时候都可以互相追来追去

不论任何时候。。。。

又到了早晨

小新的妈妈用车子载着我

车子停在一间全白的房子前面

穿着白色衣服的人站在我面前

两个人好象在说什么话

白色衣服的人缓缓地摸着我的身体

小新的妈妈在哭

虽然不知道为什么在哭还是得安慰他

但是身体却无法动弹、

不知道为何眼睛想要张开但是却变的更加疲倦

逐渐闭上的双眼看着冰冷的台子

映在台上的东西像一团脏脏的毛

为什么会变成这么虚弱呢

啊啊原来如此原来是因为我变成这个样子

所以小新才会不看我这边啊

因为看起来一点都不好吃
因为看起来一点都不甜

我已经没办法当棉花糖了

棉花糖一旦掉到地面就不能吃了

不关怎么拍打果然还是没办法变的好吃对吧

但是你拣起来了

你把他掉下去之后

无论是谁都会说不要的棉花糖拣起来了

所以这就够了

跟别人相比最了解自己身体状况的是我自己

但是我觉得没关系

就这样也没关系

所以我一直待在那里也没关系

不停的四处张望了一会之后

小新发现了我表情非常的不安

「小白」

他叫了我的名字

真的好久没听到了

「汪」

总算发出声音了

不知道这么小的声音能不能穿过玻璃

但是的确传到了小新那边了

小心走了过来

他打开了窗户把手伸向了我

「不用担心我一定会想办法的」

终于被抱住了

小心的胸口有着一直跳动的声音

比梦里还要温暖好几十倍

我的脸碰到了小心的身体

他的身体不停的颤抖好象很冷的样子

抱着我一动也不动的小新

被小新抱和移动也不动的我

小新在哭我却不能为他做些什么

内心想着至少让我看一下你有朝气的样子嘛

我舔了舔小新的脸颊

小新的脸颊有一点新春的味道

一边舔着你滴下来的泪水我注意到了一个地方

我知道我知道现在小新坐着的这个地方

这里是我跟你第一次见面的地方

是展开我俩关系的地方

我一直在等

就酸想要放弃但是总有一天

总有一天就算是掉下来的棉花糖

也会有说「好象很好吃」

然后把棉花糖拣起来拍一拍

说着「这个棉花糖还可以吃嘛」的人

来到这里

「小白」

听到他叫我的名字我把脸往上抬

虽然脸上都是泪水小新还是笑了

「小白好痒喔

像这样一只舔我的眼泪的话会变成咸的棉花糖喔

咸咸的小白看起来一点都不好吃

所以小白我会等你的

这次换我等你」

「所以你要再一次变成好吃的棉花糖
然后回来喔」

我一边被小新抱着最了最美好的梦

在一次变成棉花糖的梦

睁开眼睛的时候向往可以变成被你说是

「跟其他的比起来你看起来比较好吃」的棉花糖

软绵绵的棉花糖樱花色的暖呼呼的棉花糖

怀着最喜欢你的心情只属于你的棉花糖

我是小白小新的朋友

一只13年前被他拣到的狗

全白的我被他说像是软绵绵的棉花糖

因为看起来很好吃的样子所以就被他抱回家了

下一次我要变成樱红色的软绵绵的棉花糖

然后去见你

2009-05-21T09:06:00.000-07:00

If We Hold On Together (Ost. Land Before Time)

Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith, hope & glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

Souls in the wind
Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Words are swaying
let us come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and I

2009-05-19T11:03:00.000-07:00

Ecc 8:14-17 Faith alone can establish the heart in this mixed scene, where the righteous often suffer, and the wicked prosper. Solomon commended joy, and holy security of mind, arising from confidence in God, because a man has no better thing under the sun, though a good man has much better things above the sun, than soberly and thankfully to use the things of this life according to his rank. He would not have us try to give a reason for what God does. But, leaving the Lord to clear up all difficulties in his own time, we may cheerfully enjoy the comforts, and bear up under the trials of life; while peace of conscience and joy in the Holy Ghost will abide in us through all outward changes, and when flesh and heart shall fail.

2009-05-19T10:59:00.000-07:00

Ecc 8:9. his own hurt-The tyrannical ruler "hurts" not merely his subjects, but himself; so Rehoboam (1Ki 12:1-33); but the "time" of "hurt" chiefly refers to eternal ruin, incurred by "wickedness," at "the day of death" (Ec 8:8), and the "time" of "judgment" (Ec 8:6; Pr 8:36).

Ecc 8:9-13 Solomon observed, that many a time one man rules over another to his hurt, and that prosperity hardens them in their wickedness. Sinners herein deceive themselves. Vengeance comes slowly, but it comes surely. A good man's days have some substance; he lives to a good purpose: a wicked man's days are all as a shadow, empty and worthless. Let us pray that we may view eternal things as near, real, and all-important.

2009-05-17T06:55:00.000-07:00

( for ry)

It's gonna be alright.
Nothing's gonna put us down anymore.
Whatever promises cannot deliver,
Whenever expectations fails.
We can be sure
It wont hurt as bad now.

We gave tears,
In exchange of strength.
We gave hurts
In exchange of healing.
This life offers disappointments
But our appointment with the One
Wont be missed

The past let us know we have grown stronger.

2009-05-17T05:15:00.000-07:00

With expectations comes disappointments. But I not gonna rant now. Because even one area lack and cant be more empty in my life, I can be sure another area is filled with God's blessings.

What's the use of you being with me when you are not helping at all.

ps: It's gonna be alright :D:D:D
pss: No more expectations for you now. You are free to go .

Do Not Worry Matthew 6

25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes?
26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?
27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin.
29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these.
30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?
31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.
33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own

2009-05-15T10:03:00.000-07:00

thank god it's friday. finally a night i dont need to rush from tuition to home , dont need to study for tests. A night to enjoy doing my own things and writing fiction*. School is fun and all but very very draining and I super hate to wake up early . But other than that, it's getting much better.

2009-05-13T10:08:00.000-07:00

"Home"(michael buble)
Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all aloneI
just wanna go home

Oh, I miss you, you know
And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky, I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm,

I’ve got to go home
Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home

Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

2009-05-12T06:59:00.000-07:00

ahhh I just thought it is so unfair for me to worry about this kind of things when others could just worry about studies alone. God I cant help but to rant that this is so unfair to me:(

And perhaps because He saw my heart hardening by the world and he gave me a heartbreaking moment once in a while to make me feel again.

2009-05-11T22:33:00.000-07:00

If you are willing, guide me please.
If I am unwilling, force me please.

If you can, dont let me go.
If I cant, pull me back.

rahh rahh rahhh I know I know I know. What is the cause of the discontentment in my heart? Maybe I keep looking at them because they make me realise how much time i wasted and how little time I've left. And how much I could have accomplished. So many things I want to do but yet did none. And what's worse is that I know my priorities are warped and my decisions may not be the best.

I am a bum and it makes a lump .

2009-05-10T07:15:00.001-07:00

whee whee whee whee whee whee whee whee.................................

2009-05-09T07:24:00.000-07:00

Whenever 'God Closes One Door

He Always Opens Another,

Even Though

Sometimes It's Hell in the Hallway'

I would rather have one rose and a kind word

from a friend while I'm here

than a whole truckload when I'm gone.

Happiness keeps You Sweet,
Trials keep You Strong,

Sorrows keep You Human,

Life keeps You Humble,

Success keeps You Glowing,

But In the end ,

Only God keeps You Going

2009-05-02T07:27:00.000-07:00

"Joy is the surest sign of God's presence in the soul." If we think of a person's face as the window of his soul, then a joyful look, a kind smile, unmistakably reflects God's presence within. For without God in the soul, we can't have love, joy, or peace within. This is why St. Paul can write: "For the kingdom of God does not mean food and drink but righteousness and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit" (Rom. 14:17).

First: "A joyful servant of God is a net to catch souls for God." With so much drudgery and unhappiness in the world today, authentically joyful people stand out. Others stop and take notice of them - especially if it's a quality they lack and wish they could find for themselves. When they discover the joy they're looking for beaming at them from the face of another person, they're already caught like a fish in a net. A second saying of Mother Teresa's can be paraphrased this way: "A joyful servant of God preaches without preaching." If a picture is worth a thousand words, who can measure the effect of a joyful believer on others, believers and non-believers alike?

The best thing any salesperson can do to sell his or her product is to tell customers, "I use the product myself, and I like it!" The joyful attitude of an evangelist tells all that and more before he even utters a word.

You will attract more bees with an ounce of honey than with a barrel of vinegar."

What is joy? Joy is something that we choose to express. It's not pie in the sky; it doesn't come and go like the wind. And where does this kind of joy come from? Well, as you know, it's a matter of attitude that comes from God's holy spirit dwelling in us and our confidence in God, the belief that he is at work, that he is in full control, that he is in the midst of whatever has happened, is happening, or will happen.

1)our capacity for joy is often directly relational to the depth of sorrow we might experience
John 16:20-22

philippians 3:8,12,20,21( prison in rome)

Part of the problem is that joy is often misunderstood. We tend to equate happiness with joy, but they are two totally different ideas because they each spring from a different source. One comes from the world around us; the other originates directly from the spirit of the living God.

Romans 8:28

james 1:2-4

John 15:10-11

phillipians 4:4

Philippians 4:12-13. "I know what it is to have little, and I know what it is to have plenty. In any and all circumstances I have learned the secret of being well-fed and of going hungry, of having plenty and of being in need. I can do all things through him who strengthens me."

2009-04-29T08:08:00.000-07:00

I looked up to the clear blue sky
Asking , why am I here?
From the depths of my dreams
I wait to play my destiny out.
Though I can never understand why.

It hurts still
When I remembered it's impossible.
And that fear turned into reality
A monocle in the army of glass
I did plan, but failed

How many lies that make you cry?
How many miles to make you smile?

Baby goodbye does not mean forever
In your eyes I'd like to stay
Maybe our love can catch like fire
But you know love is dead
When there is a reason for it

Life is but a big moment
And there is none
When keeping it real goes wrong
Because there's always gonna be another mountain
Everything has an end, including myself

And the only question remains
Will you heal....in time?

2009-04-27T09:55:00.001-07:00

Hey it's been 12 am going to one,
And I am still thinking about you.( Cant control it)
Baby how should I tell you
About the whirlpool inside of me.

All these random thoughts about you
Are slowing opening this hollow side of me.

Chorus

No matter where I go and see,
You are always there
and You pulled me back
From the escapist world I went to.
( But you didnt even say goodbye)

Holding onto the broken pieces of memories
Am I the only one here?

But that's the way no one wants
And forever it's not gonna change( You know it )
If I dont let you go now,
This ache will never fade away

And at the end of the day, You didnt even realise
I am the one who is alway there.

2009-04-24T21:28:00.000-07:00

As I kneel at the altar in prayer, God loves me.
If I'm sitting in a jail cell, God loves me.
As I'm caring for the sick, God loves me.
If I'm out robbing and stealing, God loves me.
When I'm happy, God loves me.
When I'm sad, God loves me.
When I'm angry and loud, God loves me.
When I'm calm and serene, God loves me.
When I'm abused, God loves me.
As I'm abusive to others, God loves me.
If I'm in bed with a disease, God loves me.
When I'm healthy and fit, God loves me.
If I'm poor, God loves me.
If I'm out of work, God loves me.
When I'm earning large sums of money, God loves me.
When I'm winning in life, God loves me.
When I think I'm losing, God loves me.
When I'm frustrated and resentful, God loves me.
As I remain in a state of prayer, God loves me.
When I'm depressed and feeling low, God loves me.
When I'm in a good mood, God loves me.

No matter where I am -- or who I am -- or how I am -- or what I am ---- God loves me with a love that is unmeasureable and unlimited.
I AM LOVED, JUST AS I AM!

2009-04-21T07:45:00.000-07:00

A faded white painting
and my slightly vanished scent are hidden inside a eye-blinding cloud

My wordless heart slowly moves
And the time that passes inbetween is in my hands

I’m holding back the tears
I hang my heart so it’ll be weightless
In a place not too close but not too far
Another me is standing, I don’t cry

I bring my two hands together once again
In a place I live the present life instead of the memories

It’s foolish but we were always together
The pain that I wanted to empty flowed throughout my whole body and dries up my tears

I’m living with my tears
I’m holding back the tears
I hang my heart so it’ll be weightless
In a place not too close but not too far
Another me is standing, I don’t cry

I’m holding back the tears
I hang my faith on me and run
In a place that is not high nor low
Another me is standing,
With a small smile, I can smile

2009-04-13T06:19:00.000-07:00

I can't let go
I see you no matter where I look
(My crumbling heart)
I can't hide

Baby for one minute, one second
I can't let go
I hear your voice
no matter where I go
(My broken heart)
I can't breathe

Baby for one minute, one second
Even for one moment, one minute, one second

You said you were having a bad hair day
You said your eyes were puffy,
and fell back asleep
Sulking, I silently took off my jacket,
Picked up the phone and ordered take out

Closed the curtain,
and without knowing how many hours passed
Watching DVD's
(Just you and me)
The sound of your breath as you leaned against my shoulder
I thought that it was a good thing we didn't go out

Ridiculously these thoughts still torment me
I unexpectedly remember the jokes that you made and I fall apart
Moments that are really no big deal upset me
I suddenly remember the faces that you used to make and I break apart

I can't let go
I see you no matter where I look
(My crumbling heart)
I can't hide
Baby for one minute, one second
(Even if time stops, my heart stops)

I can't let go
I hear your voice no matter where I go
(My broken heart)
I can't breathe
Baby for one minute, one second
Even for one moment, one minute, one second

No matter where you went, at the bar right at the corner
When you sat in your little corner
You laid your hands on top of each other on your left leg
When you were tired and yawned, you kept the tears you wiped away
And you would smile like an idiot, showing the dimples in your two cheeks
Whenever you drank water
The pinky that you raised
The glossy black hair that could blind
I thought your clumsy chopstick skills were charming
Your full lips, I hoped it would be forever

This is love
This autobiographical memory twists my heart
Flips me upside down, with never ending tears
See love could shake a hurricane
The raindrops that blow against my feelings, one drop
The little memories

Like how this glass of alcohol becomes empty, our small memories became transparent
Even though I try to bring it back
The memories of us
I can never make it again
Like yesterday night's dream it's so clear, but it's gone
(damn)

I can't let go
I see you no matter where I look
(My crumbling heart)
I can't hide

Baby for one minute, one second
(Even if time stops, my heart stops)

I can't let go
I hear your voice no matter where I go
(My broken heart)
I can't breathe
Baby for one minute, one second
Even for one moment, one minute, one second
Even for one moment, (for one minute, one second)
Even for one moment, (for one minute, one second)
Even for one moment, (for one minute, one second)

I can't let go
I can't let go
(The whisper that takes my breath away)
For one moment(Our sweet secrets)
For us who is as sad as our love was beautiful
(Can my tears still remember you?)
I can't let go(Our quirks and habits)
For one moment(The beautiful moments)
Still for one moment
For one minute, one second
We can't go back
(For one minute, one second)

2009-04-04T23:05:00.000-07:00

Shaking in the season of farewells,
is a fleeting flower.

Everybody is walking
while looking for the same warm wind.

Encounters flow with the sky,
Under the misty clouds,
Just like the overlapping hands of the clock.

It's slowly,
,going around.

If you're the hour hand, then I'm the minute hand.
While we show the same time,we pass each other countless times
but we'll meet again.

Even if our paces is different,
If the future we see is the same, it's all right.
We can start over from the same place again.

"Even though I did my best, it was still no good..."
"Even though you lost, it was good to stay firm, right?"
Words give water to the various seeds i received in my heart

After the long winter, a dream blooms in the short spring.
Among the seeds that collect in the heart,what kind of light will let it grow?

In the shadow of the sidewalk blooms a flower,
For who is it there for?
But whoever it's for, it will shine and it will shine on you.
Feelings will turn into words, words calls out the light,
the light creates shadows, shadows make people stronger.

Strength turns into kindness,
Kindness attracts encounters.
encounter create a path,
and feelings are carved along this path again.

If the hour hand stops,
then the minute hand will stop too.
Sharing the same pain, will suddenly turn into joy.

Everyone has one person, one moment, one second, one chance
where they can't turn back time.

Living without hesitations, searching for that encounter,

that one person can say at one moment, one second, one chance
"I'm glad we met."

2009-04-04T08:36:00.000-07:00

If I realize I've been crying out in my dreams, my sweat-drenched shirt clings to me

You follow your own path and I alone start wandering aimlessly again

Breaking through the crowd of people, even if I get to that bridge
I won't find anything

Hey, you in front of me, somehow tell me
Wait up! Wait up! Please tell me how...

*Forget it! Forget it! Forget everything!"
You don't need your old self
Ah, the white spell

Run, run, run, my soul
Carry dreams wherever your go
Ah, the beginning
Is from now

Look, look, if you have enough time to wallow in the sea of regret, start swimming
The person you are, who sheds their tears meekly is always stronger than I who endures them

Throw away your hat and this disgrace
Until there's nothing

That's why we'll dive into a new world that has yet to be seen
Wake up! Wake up! Don't be afraid!

"Forget it! Forget it! Forget Everything!"
Forget all those things that comforted you
Ah, the white spell

Strike it! Strike it! Strike your frail soul,
Strongly voicing it so many times
Ah, the beginning
Is from now

*

Run, run, run, my soul
Carry dreams wherever your go
Ah, things are all right now

Realize, realize, soon realize
Everything is coming closer
Ah, the beginning
Is from now

2009-04-04T07:48:00.000-07:00

If it is such a simple thing, I wonder why can't I say it?
If it's something I can't say, I wonder how I will express it?

Even if I forget the sky we saw together,
I won't forget that we were together

If you are a flower,
You're probably not very different from all the other ones
From them, I chose one
There is a song only I can sing
There is a song only you can hear

My being here is proof that you were here
The song that I leave here is proof that I was left with you

Since I borrowed the power to live,
While I'm alive I have to give it back

When you forget the tears and the smiles,
Please just remember
Lost in the same pain
There is a song that only you can sing
There is a song that only I can hear

Everyone has a person they want to see
Everyone has a person they are waiting for
If there are people that (people) want to see
Then there are people waiting for them

Always
If you are a flower,
You're probably not very different from all the other ones
From them, I chose one
For me, For you

Someday
When you forget the tears and the smiles,
Please just remember
Without losing my way
I chose
There is a song that only you can sing
There is a song that only I can hear
There is someone waiting only for me
There is someone who wants to see only you

2009-03-25T06:22:00.001-07:00

I really should not have any expectations in the first place. Should have known it in the first place. Should not have ask an extra useless question. Why will anyone care? Nobody ever did care. I am just an outsider. Why did tears flow? I should have known it already. Why will you help?

2009-03-21T22:31:00.001-07:00

OHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOH!!!!......................................

2009-03-08T11:13:00.000-07:00

me and minghui are mega cassies now. but minghui mega-er. Studying are made alot easier and less boring by talk to her and qianhui online. heh. I dont think I will pass block test due to many things to worry about this period. However, it 's okay!! i found back the motivation to study now!.

2009-03-04T05:53:00.000-08:00

RAHHHHHHHH i am STRESSED. But nevertheless, HWAITING HWAITING HWAITING ! minghui they ROCK!

2009-02-22T06:46:00.000-08:00

I feel happy again. I lost something tt is temporary but gained something that will last me this lifetime. Thank you jh. You never know how much you blessed me. You are truly one really good and true friend.

2009-02-20T06:23:00.000-08:00

I hate to feel helpless. I hate it. I cant tell you how much I hate it. But I really dont like it.

it seems that the rain keeps on pouring.

2009-02-16T05:03:00.000-08:00

i want to sleep the whole week off. School is such a drag. Seriously.

2009-02-03T06:17:00.000-08:00

Humble Yourself For The Lord
1 Peter 5:5
Young men, in the same way be submissive to those who are older. All of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, because, "God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble."6 Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. 7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. 8'Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 9 Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings. 10 And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. 11 To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen.
2 Chronicles 7:14 i
f my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land. 15 Now my eyes will be open and my ears attentive to the prayers offered in this place.
2 Chronicles 33:12
In his distress he sought the favor of the LORD his God and humbled himself greatly before the God of his fathers. 13 And when he prayed to him, the LORD was moved by his entreaty and listened to his plea;
2 Chronicles 34:
27 Because your heart was responsive and you humbled yourself before God when you heard what he spoke against this place and its people, and because you humbled yourself before me and tore your robes and wept in my presence, I have heard you, declares the LORD.
Ephesians 4:2
Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. 3 Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace. 4 There is one body and one Spirit—just as you were called to one hope when you were called— 5 one Lord, one faith, one baptism; 6 one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all
James 4:
10 So, with a dependence on God shown by a truly spiritual prayer life, "Humble [yourself] before the Lord, and he will lift you up."
Micah 6:
8 He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.

2009-02-01T06:19:00.001-08:00

You're right, that is a lot of reading! But I believe you answer your own question with the statement you made toward the end: "I'm just so confused". Doesn't the Scripture tell us that God is not the author of confusion? The absence of His Peace is a sure sign that something is not right. I have learned that that is when I need to tread cautiously. Honestly, I have no doubt that you are called of God, quite possibly to be a missionary. But I will tell you something I - and probably many, many others - have had to learn the hard way:When I first began really hearing from Him, He would occasionally ask me to do something for Him, like go pray for someone. I was so eager to finally be doing what I just knew He had called me to do, that I would immediately run off and go "try" to do whatever He asked. I could tell you some funny stories about some of the stupid situations I would get myself into by doing that; but basically those situations were what He used to get my attention enough to where I would ask Him, "Lord, you send me off to do this, then when I get there, You're not there! What's up with that?"He said, "Son, I have lots of children that make that same mistake. From now on, this is what I want you to do: When I ask you to do something, I want you to sit down beside me and allow me to prepare you, so that when I say 'Go', you and My Spirit will go together and that thing will get accomplished. Do you understand now?"All I could say was, "Yes, Sir". But it is a lesson I have never forgotten. In fact, later in my life He revealed that my real ministry would not be until the last few years of my life here on earth! He has used me as a "pinch hitter" at various times - to get one person saved and delivered He gave me a gift of Knowledge once; to get another healed, He gave me a gift of Healing once, etc. So, while I have known all my life that I was called to do something, He has been preparing me my entire life for just a very short ministry!So, my advice would be to finish your schooling and keep seeking Him diligently. Living completely by faith sounds great, but it is not as easy as it sounds, believe me. We are all far too full of the world and our own selves, and need a lot of cleaning out before He can trust us and we have enough spiritual strength and wisdom to walk before Him with integrity.As He has said to me many, many times: "You cannot teach what you do not know; you cannot give what you do not have."These have become words that I live by.Trust Him. For truly, apart from Him none of us can do anything for Him, because it is His ministry. When He is with you, there is no confusion, for in His Presence there is only Peace.

something i read online. Very insightful

2009-01-28T05:45:00.001-08:00

thanks pohchoon for the mango and wallet:D

YAY! aiming to repay my debts by end of march. It's looks very possible now:D

2009-01-14T05:49:00.000-08:00

3 reasons why xingyi should be happy in her life

1) For a start , she knows GOD.
2) She has many true and sincere friends in life
3) She is still young and has not done many things she regret.She has many dreams to be pursued and can be pursued .

Isn't it great and enough?

2009-01-13T05:02:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAN LIMIN. Just wanna say that I really treasure you as a wonderful friend in my life. You are 20 years old already. An adult soon! But our friendship will never dies.
T- Treasure In my life. Wont trade you for silver or gold.
A-Admirable person. Your advice means alot.
N-Nicest girl I ever met

L-Life testimony which is an encouragement to other people
I-Irreplaceble friend in my life
M-Mild mannered person but powerful
I-Cant emphasize how important you are
N-YOU WILL NEVER WALK ALONE!!!

2009-01-02T07:18:00.000-08:00

Honour your parents.

God's command

2008-12-30T07:45:00.000-08:00

God is great despite circumstances. Lord I know it's a platform to grow me . And I will not be afraid because I know I am so priviledged to go through all these with you. When I fall , you will be there to catch me. Lord i trust in your perfect plan.

2008-12-04T10:41:00.000-08:00

Sizzling hot!( not anymore in 2 weeks time)

2008-11-14T12:28:00.000-08:00

hey I got something good happened to me today. Thank God!

though you may not be the last one with me.
Thank you for everything still
Friends forever I shall say

2008-11-05T10:26:00.001-08:00

God I need something more to keep me going..

2008-11-03T15:27:00.000-08:00

Yes he is cute. It's undeniable. This is how a guy should look like when he is old.

2008-10-27T11:58:00.000-07:00

If there is anyone from the entertainment industry that I sort of idolised, this will be the one. So cute right? I guess alot of people may have seen him before but dont really know his name. Yes call me cheenapok or something, but he is still cute wahahaha.

2008-10-25T12:21:00.000-07:00

I guess many things you have to start from yourself. No use lamenting how big the problems are,if you dont face it yourself, nobody will. If you want a united group, make sure you are not exclusive in ya every relation in the group. Once you are able to do that, you will be able to change the group.

2008-10-24T13:33:00.000-07:00

it is 430 am now and i still havent sleep. Not due dramas or anime. But a cockroach in my room!!! I reached home around 12 today. To my horror, rach said that a roach actually crawled into my room without my permission. And being a roach-lover, I dared not step into the room for 4 hours because shirls helped spray bygone and I heard that it takes 4 hours for the spray to be effective. So i waited in the living room for 4 hrs. Finally 4am came and I went in to the room carefully. Bed checked. Safe. Bunny checked. Safe. Lappie checked . Safe. The rest I dont dare to check infear it will suddenly pop out and run about my bare feet. I was going to lie happily on my bed when the Holy Spirit prompt me to look at one corner of the room( see, god works in every situation in ya life) Since I wont need to get down the bed to look at the particular corner , I happily obeyed. And bravo, it was lying there. To my horror again, i saw its feelers wriggled. IT "S NOT DEAD. I immediately rushed to the kitchen and toook an umbrella, intending to poke it. Being such a brave soul, I dont dare . Mainly because I was scared that it will start to run about and I will go crazy to see a roach running about in my room. Being a creative person, I sprayed hairspray on it till it was swimming in it. Finally , I poked with all my might, tearing it into half so as to make sure its relatives will not come into my room too to claim its body.

I am blogging about it now coz my heat is still bumping so fast I'm afraid I wont be able to sleep for the next half an hour.

2008-10-23T11:03:00.000-07:00

paul- 'The love of Christ leaves (me) no choice."

2008-10-13T10:39:00.000-07:00

i just want to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp.

2008-10-12T09:56:00.000-07:00

proud of myself !!! i gave five hours tuition to my very uncooperative tuition kid today! YAY

2008-10-11T09:48:00.001-07:00

I prayed. Words flow out. Tears flow out. It's a miracle.

God I am scared. Scared that this passion is just like the passing wind. When things got better and situations change , will I not depend on you anymore? Will I feel that all that I doing is worthless and tiring? How to keep this gratefulness deep and tight in my heart? How to be selfless? How to be spotless? How to be pure? How to be patient? I've yet aquire the fullness of all that. I really don't like some of the things happening. Maybe it's me . Maybe it's them. Definitely is more of me. I should be really really happy today. But when night time comes, I feel uncertain. A feeling that I never experienced this half year already. Although I brush it aside, I know, I start to look at myself more again.

A pure heart , That's what I long for. A heart that follows hard after thee.

2008-10-11T09:44:00.001-07:00

guess what? today is a half half day. One came . And before it even pass 12 hours, I realise I lose another. Both are precious. I will try my best. I will bring you back. I will make you stay.

To the third one, I will be bring you there.

2008-10-02T11:25:00.000-07:00

SUPER RANDOM ANNOUNCEMENT!!!

okie I have not exercised out of my free will for many years alr( which means other than PE, i don't exercise)

So to show my determination for a healthy lifestyle( does not mean not eating kfc and suppers) , Chung Xingyi has made a promise to everyone she will exercise at least or at most 3 times a week. YAYNESS.

2008-10-02T10:51:00.000-07:00

Let's serve God with a joyful heart. As we talk about him, be really joyful and excited. Not in a way that is not serious. Solemn is good. Solemn is serious. But dont be too focused on the solemnness that it felt as though we are focusing on that depressing Friday instead of that joyful Sunday.
Let's serve as a whole. Not with a comparative( got this word?) spirit. Not one of you bring how many friends I bring how many friends.Who convert Who didnt convert. Who has more sheeps who has less sheeps. We are a whole, one body and we move off as one. We don't compare what we have or what we've done, because we know as compared to what God has and what God done, we are nothing. Why do sand compare with another sand when an ocean is in front of it?
Every little effort matters. Every soul make a difference . Everyone is important.
Let's make an effort to be a backstage crew. Not to be prideful in what we have done but humble ourselves in the love of God. Do everything you can for the kingdom of God. But bear in mind, all these things are not for the praises of Man. Do not recieve rewards of your deeds full in this world.

2008-09-28T12:29:00.000-07:00

lalalalalalalalal~qianhui say all my posts all emo . But to clarify, I only blog when I got random serious thoughts or I am feeling unhappy. So it appears that there are alot of emo posts because I am lazy to blog about everything that happened in my life so I only blog randomly.The truth is that most of my blog posts are random thoughts and therefore it is only one or 2 sentences. Real sad posts are rare. So I am not EMO.

I am just a lazy blogger:X
Alright this post appears to be the longest post since july 22.

2008-09-28T10:05:00.001-07:00

i guess I need to find things to do soon.
Too much time= wasted= got time to think about negative things
Gotta do things to widen my horizons and perspective.
hmmm any suggestions?

2008-09-24T12:34:00.000-07:00

alright i have to admit it. I cant do maths at all. Alright SAY SMILEY FACE ( U )TO MATHS. BYE BYE GOOD GRADES. God bless my chem and physics and econs and GP!!!!

2008-09-22T07:26:00.000-07:00

I really hate it when it turn out this way. I am sorry.

I know you are good. But I cant and I will never.
Sorry.

2008-09-16T09:44:00.000-07:00

I thank you lord for the many many lessons learned today.
mini breakthroughs.
Which I believe meant alot right now.

2008-09-14T13:16:00.000-07:00

Promos is coming. That day is coming. Whatever I must face is coming. BUT HOLIDAYS IS COMING!!!

that's what truly matters.

2008-09-08T13:22:00.000-07:00

:/:/:/:/:/:/ ikyj i tish kinl og monent thay relui mamk mi mise hre aigin.

2008-09-07T13:32:00.000-07:00

I feel sad for that boy. He could have escaped. But due to absurd negligence of the 2 policemen , he had to be handed back to his killer and die such a horrible manner. Will things be changed if he stand firm or the 2 women be more determined to save him or even the 2 policemen be more vigilant.

2008-09-02T11:30:00.000-07:00

I didnt mean to ignore you.

I didnt mean to forget to say thanks.

well...

2008-08-27T21:50:00.000-07:00

It is righteous.
It is good.
It is excellent.
All the words that come out is right.

But it feels wrong still
Maybe I am not flowing correctly.

2008-08-24T09:55:00.000-07:00

I am dead tired. Shall pick up my momentum

2008-08-23T10:50:00.000-07:00

As I finally close my eyes and rest.
I realise, I miss
The smell, the silence,
The sound she made deep in the night
So assuring, my security blanket.
Miss calling her name,
Realised how foreign it sounds when I utter it now

most importantly, I do miss her.

If you are reading this, please let her know I miss her and ask her to take care of her body. The weather hasnt been very good lately..

2008-08-18T07:56:00.001-07:00

Doing something for my sheeps. maybe they will get food poisoning/stomachache wdv. They still gonna EAT IT!!! not gonna procrastinate le. Do watever I want to do:D Do watever I can do:D

YAYAYAYAYAYAY:D:D:D

2008-08-17T09:41:00.000-07:00

God there is not too much a child could take..
whatever testing you have given ,
I really hope you will bless her from now.
Not sure of what I can do to heal a hurting soul.
But I guess that's a reason
Why I am there.
Remind me every now and then
I am there for her.

2008-08-14T10:54:00.000-07:00

gotta strive for best. 60 rank points I can do it

more of You and less of me

serve with a big heart

2008-08-13T09:05:00.001-07:00

I want to be determined for once.

2008-07-31T06:32:00.000-07:00

2008-07-31T03:37:00.000-07:00

I lost my discipline today and did not do 2 important things. RAWR. Because of that, i will be extremely busy next 2 days. SADDED. More discipline in my life.